this is a major vent. you don’t have to read it at all, it just had to be said.
i am so fucking tired of hearing people say “it’s okay to be depressed.” “it’s okay to hurt.” “it’s okay to cut yourself.” “it’s okay to starve yourself.” “it’s okay to want to die.” NO IT’S NOT FUCKING OKAY! if you’ve ever been any of those things you know, it’s not okay. nothing about it is okay. it may be becoming more and more around, but that does not make it okay in any sense. if you’ve been so depressed that you just want to die to get all the pain over and done with, that’s not okay. people may say “it’s okay to feel this way. it’s normal” well no the fuck it’s not. it’s not okay. and just because it’s happening to more and more people it doesn’t make it “normal” if you’re suicidal or just trying to numb your pain it isn’t okay. i promise you that. i’ve been there. and it’s a daily battle. you don’t get over it completely. parts of it will always be with you. some days you’ll feel horrible and the next you’re okay. but none of it is normal. and if you’re feeling or acting this way you need to get help. and i know that’s probably the scariest thing to you. because it was to me. i was terrified of getting help. i didn’t want to be away from my family, who i needed more than ever. i didn’t want everyone knowing. and i didn’t want help at the time. i just wanted to stop living. but i needed help, and so do you. and even if you don’t know how to start you can talk to me. i can start to help talk you into calling someone for help. because you deserve it. you deserve to be happy and healthy and love yourself. and it will get better. you just have to confide in someone. i’ll always listen to you. please don’t ever feel you’re a lost cause. because you can always get help. you can always get better. it’s not too late, i promise. <3